That's right, that's right! I'm having a party! At my house... while my parents are in Hawaii. ZOMG...

Theme:
Movie Night and Potluck! (I never did understand why they call them that, but moving on!)

Date:October 10th

Time: 3pm Sat- 10pm Sun

Where: My House! (For ONCE)

What to bring:

* Your Favorite Movie (assuming I don't already have it)
* Your Favorite Food/ Drink/ etc
* A Pillow (for camping on my living room floor)
* Some Spending Cash. We may go out to breakfast in the morning.
* Lappys if you have them
* Your artist supplies
* Cameras

The normal gang is invited, of course (Yes D, that includes you) As well as my socal BBA buddies if you can make the trip.

Meh.

Boss is still an idiot. Hopefully I'll be getting more hours.

I'm sick of everything. I'm stressed and I'd like nothing better than to crawl into bed and not wake up again for quite a while.

I'm not sleeping well, and nothing I eat seems to be helping. I break down over the STUPIDEST things (Sorry , San) and the fact that people keep DYING around me isn't helping. I'm sick of feeling like crap, I'm sick of fighting with my friends and I'm sick of everything around me crumbling. I can't pick up a pencil and create something I actually like, and I feel like everything that comes out of my sketches is horrible right now. I miss having people around, and I miss the distractions that come with them. I'm supposed to be used to this by now, I'm supposed to be able to handle things and not break down. But with a boss that does NOTHING and me doing all the work, school that seems to be teaching me nothing and an utter lack of company, I'm really being worn down.

I'm tired of it all. I don't like arguing over things that aren't a big deal, and I don't understand why I'm so upset about it. I can't sleep properly, I'm ALWAYS tired and I don't have a day off. I'm freaking out at little things, I keep lashing out at people when I don't mean it, and most of the time I would like nothing more than to ram my fist through someone's face. It seems that anything can set me off, and I can be laughing one second and completely break down the next for no reason. And I can't tell anyone what's wrong because I don't KNOW. I mean, yeah, the deaths and separation is a part of it, but it's not like anyone can help with those.

And I don't want any comments about how I'm whining. I'm frickin' upset, and if you think I'm just being stupid I'm not interested in hearing it. I'm venting, get off my back already.

School isn't really anything special. I've hated every project I've done for my 2D design class, my Drawing and composition 2 teacher seems to have a permanent broom up her ass and my Mixed media class might as well be called "show up and get an A" there is NO instruction and the teacher doesn't even know who I am. I even ASKED how we were supposed to be graded when we never turned in anything and he doesn't take roll. I'm fairly sure my history teacher is off his rocker, and I'm getting a decent grade on that without too much trouble. I'm also 86% done with my math class's 2nd module. I don't talk to anyone, I just go to class and then come home.

My old boss got fired and my new boss is a useless tub of lard that does nothing but chit-chat on his cell phone all day. I handle all the breaks for everyone and tell them what needs to be done, and apparently since I run the register the customers feel that I'm the one that they're supposed to complain to. What irks me so much is that this boss doesn't even CARE. We're busy with a line out the door and he's sitting at one of the tables twiddling his thumbs. LITERALLY TWIDDLING HIS THUMBS!!! WTH!!! Needless to say, I'm looking for a new job.

Ponyo:
OMG DRUG TRIP! Ponyo was odd, even for Miazaki. It was soooo funny though! I recommend it, but I warn you, it makes NO sense.

Yep yep, hard to believe I'll be 20 in 2 days. It always seems like the days go by so slow, yet the years seem to go so fast! Time is rather paradoxical. I have this weekend off, so I'll have some time to either hang out or get some things taken care of. Cliff and I have a trip planned in the next couple of weeks, and I am thoroughly looking forward to it. We also have a lot of work to do before Cliff goes out again. It seems that we have a lot of things to do, and it seems we have too much time and too little all at once.

My poor little herb garden has been attacked by white flies, but I'm not sure if I'm going to treat it or not. On the one hand, if I decide to transplant them into pots to take home with me when we give up the Condo, then I should, but on the other hand, if I'm going to leave them, it will be a lot of effort of nothing. Decisions, decisions.

UP:
This movie was really cute! It was funny and emotional and I'd definitely see it again!